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Friday, June 03, 2005

hellos!hellos!long time no blog ehs.hahhas.lalalls.guess what.this week well more like wed was a great day fer me man!hahas.settled things wit twinnie plus cons.finally right.hahhas.goodgood.had to settle things wit cons the hardhard way though.nvm.as long as its settled i'm happy.sucks to fight wit her.twinnie.hmms.well i had to go and talk to things out wit her.but still its settled.hahhas.happyhappy.missed talking to my stupid twinnie and she missed talking to me.right?right?i know she did.hahas.BOO!!!today went to meet yuan yin and mashita at gm there.hahahs.stupiid sia.so damn farnie.yuan yin come meet me in my house.then i purposely go stand outside the lift and wait.she screamed siia.hahas.so crap.then we jalan here and there thinkthink do what.we hungry mahs.then buy food.then got one small kid stalk us sia.freaky friday!hahas.we finally managed to shake him off.aiyo.allot of things abt today.let's just say we had a blast.hahahs.TWINNIE!!!!i miss you!!!longlong time never talk.allot of catching up to do ehs.hahas.OREO DEAR(: HAPPY 3 MTHS 3 DAYS YEAHS.

HOPE WE'LL BE TOGETHER LONGLONG YEAHS.HEES.LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LOADSLOADS.anyways.nothing much to blog lerhs.hope you guys like my new blogskin

.casue i love it.hahas.

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Friday, May 20, 2005

why does life gotta treat me this way!!!why do i have to be the one to suffer so much!!!!it jus sucks so much man.it hurts so much!!!i can't stop thinking abt him.i can't forget him.i need him.i know i'm attached but i've liked laksamana fer a longer time.5 mths.fer me that's long my guy is only abt 3 mths.sighs.does he know how i'm feeling now?nope.seriously doubt it.nobody knows how i'm feeling deep down inside man.nobody at all.why can't i jus forget him.he's hurt me so much yet i can't hate him.i'm jus stupid man.stupid.stupid.stupid.i'm jus so fucking stupid man!why can't i jus get it in my ead that he don't like me!!!sighs.so sad.all i can do is cry myself to slp.sighs.ik really wanna teke my penknife and slit till i see all the blood running out.sighs.twin.you know what.whenever you need me i'm always here fer you.i listen to you.i advise you.i try my level bet to make you feel better.but when i need to you're never there fer me.you know how you make me feel.since that major fight we had that day our relationship has been going downhill.sighs.sucks man.even when i tell others it still isn't the same as telling you.you understand me the best cause i'm you're meeny me and you're my big me.sighs.i really hope we'll stop fighting so much.cause i don't wanna lose sucha great jie,bestfriend and huggable bear like you.please.let's jus forget abt it all.i don't wanna fight wit you anymore and pls try to cheer up.9cm gurll:don't bother abt that person ok.she thinks she's very gorge.she is but she simply thinks too highly of herself.she thinks everybody is better than her.jus ignore her k.not worth getting upset over whatt ppl say.esp her yeahs.when you tell me you cry i thot what happened.you scared me man.try to cheer up and forget abt this k.go his hse lehs.hahhas.fer the record you're a great gurll and you're really friendly and gorge.way better than her yeahs.i'm only stating facts.
no mood to blog.feel sad.even worse than i felt jus now.sighs.

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

LAKASAMANA:i so totally fucking hate you.i don't know why i fell in love wit you in the frist place and why it took me so long to forget you.but now you've made it a whole lot easier fer me.you've hurt me.i hate being treated this way.i've never loved many guys as much as i love you.only 3 including my present and you.i've cried so many times over you.i cut so many times over you.all you do is let out your anger on me.you know how that's making me feel?!do you?!you don't ok!!!i tell you now.IT SO TOTALLY SUCKS!!!!!!!!i feel like slapping myself.why did i evr need to be nice to you.why did i ever fall in love with you.5 mths i've liked you.5 fucking wothless mths now all gone down the drain.i don't understnad you.i simply don't at all.just casue you're cute you think so highly of yourself.wtf!learn to be fucking humble man.it doesn't kill you know?!they're loads of totally hot guys out there who are humble and nice mah.follow them man.you'll learn a thing or two.so pissed and hurt now man.totally no mood man.jus feel like crying cutting.running away and dying!!!!argh!!!!!.

darhling twin:we said we'll never let it happen again yeahs.and it surely won't.you're the only one i can share all my problems wit.casue you're like me.(: i really feel i sldn't have told you abt the green apple thingy.sucks to see you so hurt and upset.cheer up sweetie.

results: history; 65/100 [2nd in class] maths; 48/100 [so many careless man.sighs] tamil; 68 [2nd in class] ;english 80/100 [first in class(:] ;lit 123/200 [2nd in class] ; cme 45/50 [2nd in class] ; dnt 34/100 [so hard man.sighs] rest to be updated soon.

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

hellos.finally i've decided to type somethings in my blog.sighs.these past two days have been a total nightmare man.yesterday tt girl go blow the whole thing up.we only asked her one simple question.and she say we show her attitude.wtf sia.after tt she apologize alr.then i thot i also better apologize.so i did.then she go complain to her godbro l_ _ _ _ g.then he cum and say what i've been messing with cons.wtf man.not happy.not happy lahh.she's not your girl anymore.keep tt in mind and talk.you still sound like her guy.so extra seh tt one.other ppl got problem wanna cum and butt in.we can fight till we die also not your problem right?nabei ah.can't stand it when you go support her.biased sia.you think only you got godbro and godsis who very "big deal" ah.i also have man.its jus i rather settle my own problems by myself instead of complaining to everybody man.i younger than you but i got more common sense.now even a_ _ _ _ h's mad.i know you've always hated us and never liked it when i was her godsis.so i guess you've finally got your wish.she ain't my jie anymore.now you can go dance arnd and celebrate.she said i don know how to accept her friends esp you.you don know how hard i tried to be nice to you.casue you were her best friend.my girls dislike you too.but casue i begged them to be nice to you they were.you never bothered to see how hard all of us were trying.you don understand at all.you never know at all.a _ _ _ _ h, its your choice and i know i'll never be able to change that.i know your desicion will last forever and it won't change even if i die.you say i don treat you like my jie.you were like half of me.i told you everything and i thot you were the one person who wld'nt hurt me ut help me instead.i guess i was wrong when i said that.casue you are the one person who had left the most scars on my heart.whenever you're pissed i'm the one who gets it frm you.though it really hurts when you let out your anger on me.i jus keep quiet and don say anything at all.i've never been treated this way b4 you know.and i've never treated any of my godsis' or godbros this way b4.i've forgiven you a million times and in the end this is what i get.i simply can't help thinking if you like her have always hated me and my friends.i don understand%

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Wednesday, May 04, 2005

hellos.(: long time no blog eh.ahahas.sorry ah.busy doind other stuff.whoos.finally manged to change my blogskin.nice nice eh?. i like the song!ahahas.so my exams are starting this friday.stress seh.i got like tamil compo,tamil paper and english paper in the same day.gotta mug really hard casue i wanna do well ma.if not i'll dissapoint my darhling oreo and everybody who has fate in me esp my old girls.right guys?ahahs.actually frankly my sci marks were damn bad.passed first test then failed the rest 3 or 4.recently i've passed witht flying colours fer all my recent sci test.[4 sci tests] cause my mro helped! right dear?i wldn't have passed without you helping me mug.wasn't it fun to take a break and celebrate my 2 mths on the 1st.ahahas.we went to the beach.funfun seh!he lahh anyhow accidently go push me into the water then wanna help me but i go pull him back in.then we were like playing a fool in the water then one couple walk past and say wad after marriage can still be so sweet.wei!we not married yet man!we're still young and carefree well sorta.ahahs.you blind lahh.anw happy late 2 mths ah.i alr wished you so not really late yeah.ilove you baby.you sld know that right.hope our love will last fer a long long long time.(: i helped you mug fer your exams too so you better to well hor.don let me down and i hope i won let you down too yeah.hahahs.to the rest of my darlings good luck fer your exams.study hard esp to the lazy pigs who are finding it hard to mug casue can't concentrate.talking to you guys ah jies.hahahs.i sound like a mother.whoos.i'm pregnant with oreo's baby.no that's a joke.hahahs.leejing.i'm so happy fer you girl!i know you've been waiting fer it fer a really long time.rmb the major crazy fight we had abt it.hahas.no hard feelings lahh.you're a wonderful girl and you deserve it sweetie.love you loads kkaees.and hope we get to meet soon.haven't seen you in sucha long time and missing all your advices and crap.hhahas.so i guess that's it.too those who've been bugging me to update.here!ahahas.love you guys loads man!tc.

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Thursday, April 07, 2005

i hate my stupid fucking parents.they jus suck to the core sia.i myself got more than enough problems and they have to make it even worse.they like got personal pleasure in making my life a total fucking misery sia.i can't take all this man.coming to a point like nowdays when i cut even though its damn deep i got no feeling anymore.cry also dun seem to feel any better.wth is happening to me man.i feel as if i'm losing my mind and losing control of everything else too.life sucks so much man.i jus wanna run away from all this shit.i don't really care what happens.if i ge sent to girl's home maybe is better ar.at least no need to suffer so much sia.haii.hurts man.even the pain of when i cut is way more better cause not tt painful.maybe cause i really too used to it lahh.sice pri 5 man.hu wldn't be used to it.haii.my life is a living nightmare man.i don't wanna live it anymore.

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Thursday, March 31, 2005

whoo.haven't updated in a long time yeah.too lazy lerh.hahas.anw.went to the SP concert yest.it was so fucking cool!hahhas.but we did have to wait really long for them to come.went to the concert with tiara.elyn.jiahui.cheryl and jiayan.so fun sia.pug jelly opened the concert.and the rest was jus a blast.i bought a sp shirt and pug jelly signed on it.and i have a rose which sp touched.so cool sia!(: my feet and ears are still aching frm yest. mans.hahahs.came back at 1 yest sia.to think i actually made it to school today.hahas.see i changed my skin.you like.hahahs.i like it anw.hahahs.yeah.baby.tmr counts one mth.(:time passes so fast doesn't it.hope we can keep counting our time together always and forever.ilu darling.(:hahhas.anw.exams cuming up.scared sia.wad if i do badly.feeling really stressed and depressed lately.keep on crying sia.nvm.i hope it'll pass soon.anw.tired like shit.i'll update soon yeah.

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